Ok, so I'm late with this list. Also, for the first year in a long time, I didn't meet my reading goal. I planned to read 75 books and read 69. But the teacher in me knows this is a 92%, so I don't feel too bad. :)
Here's the list!
1. Real American by Julie Lythcott-Haims
2. The People We Keep by Allie Larkin
3. Malibu Rising by Taylor Jenkins Reid
4. The Ungrateful Refugee by Dina Nayeri
5. Embassy Wife by Katie Crouch
6. My Darling Husband by Kimberly Belle
7. Hell of a Book by Jason Mott
8. The Last Karankawas by Kimberly Garza
9. One Night, New York by Lara Thompson
10. Watch Out for Her by Samantha M. Bailey
11. The Rib King by Ladee Hubbard
12. Crying in H Mart by Michelle Zauner
13. Dark Roads by Chevy Stevens
14. American War by Omar El Akkad
15. Hard Cash Valley by Brian Panowich
16. No-No Boy by John Okada
17. Dietland by Sarai Walker
18. The Guest List by Lucy Foley
19. The Many Daughters of Afong Moy by Jamie Ford
20. The Pull of the Stars by Emma Donaghue
21. Cultish: The Language of Fanaticism by Amanda Montell
22. Pieces of Her by Karen Slaughter
23. Transcendent Kingdom by Yaa Gyasi
24. The Other Black Girl by Zakiya Dalila Harris
25. Nowhere Girl by Cheryl Diamond
26. Blue-Skinned Gods by SJ Sindu
27. Ralph's Party by Lisa Jewell
28. Stay and Fight by Madeline Ffitch
29. The Hunting Party by Lucy Foley
30. Reputation by Sarah Vaughn
31. Five Little Indians by Michelle Good
32. The Henna Artist by Alka Joshi
33. The Woman in the Library by Sulari Gentill
34. The House on Fripp Island by Rebecca Kauffman
35. Sankofa by Chibundo Onuzo
36. Marriage of a Thousand Lies by SJ Sindu
37. Wish You Were Here by Jodi Picoult
38. The Maid by Nita Prose
39. The Signature of All Things by Elizabeth Gilbert
40. Saint X by Alexis Schaitkin
41. Crossroads by Jonathan Franzen
42. Goldilocks by Laura Lam
43. Mrs. Everything by Jennifer Weiner
44. Remarkably Bright Creatures by Shelby Van Pelt
45. The Great Circle by Maggie Shipstead
46. Lady Killers by Tori Tefler
47. How to Write an Autobiographical Novel by Alexander Chee
48. Women Talking by Miriam Toews
49. The Bookseller by Cynthia Swanson
50. Bel Canto by Ann Patchett
51. Into the Jungle by Erika Ferencik
52. Moloka'i by Alan Brennert
53. Perfect Little World by Kevin Wilson
54. Nothing to See Here by Kevin Wilson
55. The Family Fang by Kevin Wilson
56. A Thousand Acres by Jane Smiley
57. Blake Cake by Charmaine Wilkerson
58. The Last Housewife by Ashley Winstead
59. The Midnight Library by Matt Haig
60. In My Dreams I Hold a Knife by Ashley Winstead
61. Fake by Erica Katz
62. The Misfortunes of Family by Meg Little Reilly
63. The Personal Assistant by Kimberly Belle
64. Nightcrawling by Leila Mottley
65. Deep Water by Emma Branford
66. All You Can Ever Know by Nichole Chung
67. When We Were Bright and Beautiful by Jillian Medoff
68. Dark Corners by Megan Goldin
69. Girl, Woman, Other by Bernadette Evaristo
I set a goal of reading 75 books and I read 91, plus some ARCs not listed here and a million student responses. So! A lot of reading. It was a good year, by that metric alone.
Here's the list, in December-January order:
91. Stay Awake by Megan Goldin
90. Saving Ruby King by Catherine Adel West
89. Find Me by Anne Frasier
88. The Only Good Indians by Stephen Graham Jones
87. The Undocumented Americans by Karla Cornejo Villavincencio
86. What’s Done in Darkness by Laura McHugh
85. Firefly Lane by Kristin Hannah
84. Hidden Valley Road by Robert Kolker
83. The Glass Hotel by Emily St. John Mandel
82. The Overnight Guest by Heather Gudenkauf
81. House of Correction by Nicci French
80. What You Wish For by Katherine Center
79. The Younger Wife by Sally Hepworth
78. Bone Canyon by Lee Goldberg
77. Lost Hills by Lee Goldberg
76. What’s Mine and Yours by Naima Coster
75. A Nearly Normal Family by M. T. Edvardsson
74. Who is Maud Dixon? By Alexandra Andrews
73. Ordinary Grace by William Kent Krueger
72. The Lady’s Guide to Petticoats and Piracy by Mackenzi Lee
71. Friends and Strangers by J. Courtney Sullivan
70. Never Saw Me Coming by Vera Kurlan
69. We Keep the Dead Close: A Murder at Harvard and a Half Century of Silence by Becky Cooper
68. The Exiles by Christina Baker Kline
67. America Pacifica by Anna North
66. All the Beautiful Strangers by Elizabeth Klehfoth
65. Future Home of the Living God by Louise Erdrich
64. No Hiding in Boise by Kim Hooper
63. Mary Jane by Jessica Anya Blau
62. We by Yevgeny Zamyatin
61. The Talented Miss Farwell by Emily Gray Tedrowe
60. Call Me Elizabeth Lark by Melissa Colasanti
59. The Last by Hanna Jameson
58. Uncanny Valley by Anna Wiener
57. We Run the Tides by Vendela Vida
56. The Plot by Jean Hanff Korelitz
55. The Last Story of Mira Lee by Nancy Jooyoun Kim
54. Say Nothing: A True Story of Murder and Memory in Northern Ireland by Patrick Radden Keefe
53. You Will Remember Me by Hannah Mary McKinnon
52. The Animals by Christian Kiefer
51. The Road by Cormac McCarthy
50. All Things Cease to Appear by Elizabeth Brundage
49. Valentine by Elizabeth Wetmore
48. Leave the World Behind by Rumaan Alam
47. Before and After by Rosellen Brown
46. Craft in the Real World by Matthew Salasses
45. When the Stars Go Dark by Paula McLain
44. Station Eleven by Emily St. John Mandel
43. Broken People by Sam Lansky
42. The Monsters We Make by Kali White
41. A Dark and Secret Place by Jen Williams
40. The Best New Ten-Minute Plays 2020 by Lawrence Harbison
39. Contemporary Monologues for Twentysomethings by Jessica Bashline
38. Know My Name by Chanel Miller
37. His Only Wife by Peace Adzo Medie
37. The Gentleman’s Guide to Vice and Virtue by Mackenzi Lee
36. The Book of Delights by Ross Gay
35. The Sum of Us: What Racism Costs Everyone by Heather McGhee
34. Saving Beck by Courtney Cole
33. The Four Winds by Kristin Hannah
32. Blindness by Jose Saramago
31. Local Woman Missing by Mary Kubica
30. Herland by Charlotte Perkins Gilman
29. We Need to Talk about Kevin by Lionel Shriver
28. Lakewood by Megan Giddings
27. Utopia by Thomas More
26. The End of Policing by Alex Vitale
25. The Lost Apothecary by Sarah Penner
24. The Truth About Melody Browne by Lisa Jewell
23. Utopia for Realists by Rutger Bregman
22. In Her Bones by Kate Moretti
21. Hunger by Roxane Gay
20. The Dutch House by Ann Patchett
19. The Mars Room by Rachel Kushner
18. The Confessions of Frannie Langton by Sara Collins
17. The Absolutist by John Boyne
16. Disappearing Earth by Julia Phillips
15. The Gone Dead by Chanelle Benz
14. Jesus and John Wayne: How White Evangelicals Corrupted a Faith and Fractured a Nation by Kristin Kobes DuMez
13. Severance by Ling Ma
12. The Line that Held Us by David Joy
11. Good Company by Cynthia D’Aprix Sweeney
10. Hollywood Park by Mikel Jollett
9. Caste: The Origins of Our Discontent by Isabel Wilkerson
8. Americanah by Chimimandi Ngozi Adichie
7. City of Girls by Elizabeth Gilbert
6. Migrations by Charlotte McConaghy
5. A Good Neighborhood by Therese Anne Fowler
4. Blacktop Wasteland by S.A. Cosby
3. Furious Hours: Murder, Fraud and the Last Trial of Harper Lee by Casey Cep
2. Sharks in the Time of Saviors by Kawai Strong Washburn
1. All That Remains by Sue Black
It’s a good thing the crew came by yesterday and removed the mound of materials that had been gathering in my side yard--the framing posts, the extra drywall, the puffy piles of pink insulation--because this morning, at precisely 5:15, heralded only by the sudden growling of Humphrey, it began to rain.
I picked up my phone from the nightstand and saw that three friends had beat me to it with their Facebook posts.
I love the smell of rain in the air.
Omg, it’s officially Fall.
This means we at the DeBoard house have survived Summer Part 3, those endless 90 degree days where the eighteen-year-old A/C still kicks on weirdly late in the night. We have arrived at open-window Fall. We have made it through the last of the Central Valley dust that settles in the middle of July and then hangs around, sweeping into nooks and crannies, lodging in corners, coating our air filters. We have arrived at sweater and legging season, at random afternoon hot chocolate, at roasted vegetables and pumpkin-flavored things.
Well--at least in five weeks, I should be able to roast some vegetables.
Yesterday our kitchen started to look like a kitchen again. The plastic is down; the subfloor is in; the drywall is nearly there.
Is it weird (yes, I know it’s weird) that I started crying the second I walked in the door?
There’s all this space. And sure, it’ll be filled with appliances and cabinets and the table I haven’t yet purchased, so the space will be much less space, but still. This was how this kitchen was supposed to look, I just know it. The wall was a mistake, one of those things that seems like a good idea on paper. I can imagine the original construction crew, all fresh from beating the Germans in the war shaking their heads and saying, “All right, if that’s what the boss wants.”
It’s a small thing--I shared it with my family on our group text and got two measly “likes”--but I can see all the way from my office at the back of the house down the (still narrow, sure) hallway and all the way to the window at the front of the kitchen.
A friend commented on Facebook, after my initial before-video tour, that she was generally not in favor of removing walls, and in fact, had wanted to add a wall in her new kitchen. Still, she agreed that my wall had to go.
Back in one of my previous lives, where I wrote about real estate for the now-defunct weekly edition of my town’s newspaper, I toured new home developments, the kind where the house was almost as big as the lot, and the houses themselves had giant, boxy footprints. Six or seven bedrooms, three or four baths, an open concept main floor. It was the open concept that got me every time. In its empty, undefined state, it was simply too much space. What the hell, I’d wonder, did someone do with a thousand square feet of beige carpet?
But then, I’ve always lived in small places. And even when they weren’t technically small--I think the house I grew up in was around 1800 square feet, which doesn’t feel small to me, if you included the space from the converted porch--I shared it with a lot of people at once. My three sisters and I shared one bathroom and only broke into raging fights once a week or so. We had an entire room that was only used for company, and even then, only on holidays.
Come to think of it, that kitchen was probably too small. I never cooked in it myself--as third daughter, I split every-other-night clean-up duties--but now I can see the space would only be improved by knocking out a wall.
We have new developments: two of the kitchen can lights are operable. The motion sensor light on the back porch is working once again, and the refrigerator--still outside on the patio--is now plugged into its own outlet, rather than relying on a twelve-foot extension cord.
It’s not magic, but close.
Some of us are handling this remodel better than others.
Thursday, making the hour-long drive from campus, my thoughts were racing. I couldn’t grab one and hold on to it--they were there and gone, each a nonsensical burst of syllables. An idea for my class. How to revise the first scene in my new book. What if something goes wrong with the electrical. What if this project never ends. I pulled over at the halfway point, realizing what was wrong. I’d had nothing to eat in the last eighteen hours, but I had consumed three giant cups of coffee. And while I usually try to balance coffee and water consumption, my water bottle was still filled to the brim.
I glanced at my phone and see that my dad had responded to my early-morning text, sent after I realized that Humphrey hadn’t eaten any of his morning food.
Humphrey may be sick since he threw up after getting here.
Humans and animals alike are being affected by this remodel.
On Friday night, I go to a friend’s birthday-month kick-off: four women, good wine, a charcuterie board and some burrata sprinkled in sea salt that makes me want to close my eyes and die happy. The conversation is wild and interesting, and I love that I’m the least accomplished one at the table, the one with the most to learn. But a part of my mind is with my dogs, hoping they stay on the non-demoed part of the plastic, wondering if they’re sitting in the dark hating me for leaving them alone.
Part of the problem is the whole leaving the house thing. It never felt like a big deal before, back in pre-March 2020 life. But then the whole world was asked to stay at home unless otherwise necessary, and it turned out that much of my life wasn’t necessary. It turned out I could write and teach from home, and order groceries from my home, and Zoom with anyone from home, and go to church in my pajamas from my couch, and the truth is maybe that wasn’t a weird diversion from life but was my actual life.
Maybe I liked staying at home.
Maybe I liked a pared-down version of life, where I didn’t wake up already feeling exhausted, where I had a fairly good idea of what the day held and how to tackle it.
And then, we went back to almost-normal life--vaxxed and masked, but I’m back in the classroom, back on campus, back to Friday nights with friends. And then coming home, it’s not to my safe little space, but to a wall of plastic sheeting, and wide-eyed dogs who are terrified anew every time the A/C kicks in and the plastic rustles, and a lot of uncertainty despite the carefully laid-out schedule.
The truth is, I never appreciated my little home properly until it was my only space, when I was forced out from all the other spaces that had been part of my life--the classroom, my office, the Starbucks where I wrote two novels back to back.
And now, here we are.
Every day, coming home from grandparent camp, the dogs want to sniff every nook and cranny--which is a reminder, if I needed it, that other humans have been here, in our space. Also, if I want, I can see them on the security system, which lets me know when a door or window has been opened and sends me short video clips of people getting into and out of trucks at the curb.
On Tuesdays, I stop by after work to change clothes, and I find the men sitting on the back step eating sandwiches or listening to music on the patio. It’s their lunch time, and I tiptoe around. My instinct is not to disturb them, although that seems silly. Don’t mind me! I’m sorry if I’m in your way!
Later, there are obvious signs that people have been in our house--the drywall down, the gas line moved, new tubes and wires--and more subtle ones, too. A box of nails sits next to the French doors. A Doctor Pepper can, crumpled, in my recycling bin.
But mostly, these men are like ghosts, flitting in and out of my peripheral vision. It’s strange to think that by now, they know more about me than I do about them.
Today is marked “Rough Electrical,” the second of three days with the same designation on the schedule taped to our front door. My dad, probably annoyed by my daily appearance in his home, wonders out loud what’s taking so long. I remind him that it’s a ten-week project, and we’re only in the second week.
“You should be there keeping an eye on them,” he tells me, and it’s hard to tell if this is out of concern that I’m being ripped off, or whether he would rather not have my dogs vying for cuddle position on his lap. How exactly would I keep an eye on them? Stand in the corner with a hard hat, pretending I know what the heck is going on?
I remind him that I’m in daily contact with the project manager, that we have a schedule, that things seem to be moving right along, but he seems unimpressed.
I tell my husband about this conversation later, expecting him to be as exasperated as I am, but instead he’s sympathetic. “Your dad probably wishes he could be there, working,” he says. “Those days are behind him.”
This is confusing, because in the eighteen years I’ve lived with this horrible kitchen, no one in my life has ever offered to do practical things like knock down walls or rewire electrical for me, and while my dad is decidedly handy, I’ve never known him to do things like this in his own home, either.
“It’s not about the exact work,” my husband insists, when I raise these finer points. “It’s about being able to work.”
Yesterday, I stand in the doorway and realize that all the furniture--the sofa table, the modular sectional, the trunk that holds DVDs I have no idea why we own--seems askew, as if it has all been shifted a few inches to the right. It’s only at that point that I look up and see that six holes for can lights have been cut into the ceiling, that they’re wired for action. I imagine the electricians heaving the bulky pieces of the sectional out of the way, stepping around throw pillows and the basket of dog toys, wondering (as I often do) why someone needs three remotes, and then putting everything back, more or less the same, at the end.
It’s not a huge leap of metaphor to say that all of life feels like this for me right now--similar but different, slanted, off-kilter.
And dusty. So effing dusty.
I was asleep by nine last night, after two hours of audible yawns. It turns out that remodeling a kitchen, even when my only physical labor has been to peel back the painter’s tape and take a look, is exhausting. Or at least, living life around it is exhausting.
A feature of my back-on-campus life is that I have to leave early--before six a.m. early--to make the drive to Merced and greet my bleary-eyed 7:30 students. Since the dogs can’t be there during the remodel (other dogs, better behaved dogs, maybe your dogs could, but mine can’t), this means an in-the-dark doggie transfer two mornings a week. My mom, in the running for sainthood for sure, has been showing up at my house at 5:45, her little white Fit ghostly at the curb, and I meet her there with two leashed-up, sleepy-eyed terriers.
At the end of my work day, after checking in with the contractor at my house, I make the twenty-minute drive across town, where the pups are waiting for the trip in reverse, and then it’s back to the rustling painter’s plastic and the strange left-behind scents of workers who have eaten lunch on the patio.
And then, for an hour at least, the three of us do nothing but sit on the couch, dazed. Sometimes we do this while eating cheese.
My best feature, which is also probably my worst, is that I’m a very structured individual. I make lists with a type of devotion that can best be called religious (and worst, anal). I have not just a rough outline of what needs to be done, but I often write down time markers (7:15-start load of towels; 8:30-post office) and so my day unfolds. I AM PRECISELY THIS KIND OF FUN, BUT I CAN’T HELP IT. This kind of rigid scheduling for the boring-but-necessary bits allows the rest of my life to happen--the midweek birthday party for my husband, the tickets to a play on the weekend. I don’t like to scramble. I don’t like to dig through a pile of laundry at the last minute to find the pants I want to wear.
These habits, cultivated in childhood, mostly shelved in college, attended to haphazardly early in my teaching career, have become solidified during the pandemic, when I lived the same day, day after day, differentiated only by a few markers. Street sweeper on Tuesday. Trash pickup on Thursday. Groceries on Saturday.
I’ve tried, y’all. But I’m 45 now, and we may as well all acknowledge that I’m this person.
And so yesterday, after some gentle (?) urging, the contractor gave me a schedule that covers the work for the next eight weeks. Rough plumbing… rough electrical… inspection… and so on. I appreciate this schedule. I have it taped to the inside of the front door where it will not only be handy but also, hopefully, serve as a kind of talisman.
“Well, it won’t look like this for the entire eight weeks,” my husband said last night, a rare glum note creeping into his voice. We were looking at the temporary framing, the bare floor boards, the painter’s plastic rustling in the breeze from the air conditioner. (It’s September 24 but still 95 degrees, and with a hole cut in the ceiling, there’s not much to stop the hot air from seeping down.)
No, I thought. It won’t.
Because we have a schedule.
It’s 6 a.m., and I’m in my writing spot, a cup of coffee by my side, my terrier mix circling next to me, trying to find just the right position to settle into for the long haul. My laptop is on my lap, but I haven’t opened the file still called “idea" although it's hovering at 50,000 words, as I’ve done every morning for months.
Instead, I’ve opened this one. A blank slate. And I’m typing this, whatever it is.
I both hate that my mind does this—insists on a divergent path from the one she and I have agreed upon—and have learned to respect it. This is my mind saying, Nope! There's something else you have to do first.
The trouble is that at this early moment, I don’t know what it is.
Or rather, it’s so many things, they’re warring inside me, like a classroom of insistent hands raised high: pick me!
Yesterday, after years of planning and some financial scrambling over the summer to make it happen, the kitchen remodel began. Approximately six feet from where I’m sitting, a wall of painter’s plastic is taped, floor to ceiling. Beyond it, where for eighteen years has been a beige and blue linoleum with a square repeating pattern, are bare boards, laid on the diagonal. Under that--my rat terrier and I both peered into the largest of the knotholes, inspecting--is the crawlspace beneath my house. It's an area that my twin fears (of the dark, and of tight spaces) keep me from thinking too much about.
There are other changes, too--the wall separating the kitchen from the dining room is down to studs, nothing but a spindly wooden skeleton from which dangles electrical cords and a disembodied light switch. Yesterday, picking my way carefully across the bare boards to the laundry in our garage, I was surprised to find the switch hanging there, even though that was where I’d flicked it on every morning for eighteen years. Things look different when the context changes. I can already hear myself saying, this was where the gas line used to be. There was a wall here, can you believe it? And the tile: lime green with a red stripe!
The physical changes are the most obvious, because remodeling a kitchen while you (and your husband, and two confused terriers) are living in the house means that everything else has moved too--the refrigerator is outside, plugged in via a long and janky extension cord. The microwave and a temporary pantry have been set up in what no longer looks like a music room but an odd assemblage of furniture--dining table, chairs, ironing board, printer, crockpot, electric kettle. In a Facebook post the other day, I called it sub-glamping, although maybe “camping inside our own house” is still a better, if less elegant, descriptor.
The remodel is no doubt why I haven’t slept well in a week, worried about what they would find in the walls, under that scraped-up linoleum. (Just a few weeks ago, our neighbor, probably intending to be helpful, told us about the expensive and time-consuming process of her asbestos removal.)
But as sometimes happens, I feel all the areas of my life converging at once. (I was, years and years ago, an English major, and seeing symbolism everywhere is how we roll.) The kitchen remodel--tear it down, build it back up--feels like a symbol of other things, ones I’m not even able to name right now. I’ve been cycling between an anxiety that wakes me with a pounding heart and a bone-deep exhaustion that settles in after things that shouldn’t be that exhausting--two back-to-back classes, a long wait in line at the grocery store.
Maybe tearing down the walls isn’t the best thing for you right now, Paula.
But then again, maybe it is.
This is my kitchen, before.
I've lived in this house for 18 years and never once deliberately turned on the light in this room. When friends have come over, I've shooed them out of the way. Don't go in there, it's scary. They laugh. People always think I'm joking when I'm being my most serious.
The problem isn't just one thing, it's all the things. It was built before disposals and automatic dishwashers, before cooks had need for more than one outlet, when refrigerators were (apparently) the size of two stacked mini-fridges. It was built when lime green tile with a red stripe was a good design choice. Should we put in more countertops or cabinets? I can imagine a worker asking, and some tight-ass budget manager puffing on a cigar, saying, Hell no. They can figure that out themselves.
You might notice it's cluttered and crowded. You might notice the owners long ago stopped scouring that sink (because what, really, was the point?). I once had a faculty mentor who had written her dissertation on Henry James tell me, "Don't worry, you cannot think worse things about Henry James than I have thought." And likewise--you can't say something horrible about my kitchen that I have not said myself a thousand times. I simply cannot be offended on this score.
And so I give you: my old kitchen.
A year in reading (since it wasn’t a year for much else)
1. Writing Fiction: A Guide to Narrative Craft by Janet Burroway (For my fiction writing class. One of the best books on craft around.)
2. The Best American Short Stories 2019 ed. Anthony Doerr
3. Half of a Yellow Sun by Chimimanda Ngozi Adichie (Brilliant, horrifying, heart-breaking. There’s a scene in here that will stay with me forever.)
4. The Things We Cannot Say by Kelly Rimmer
5. The Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood (A re-read. I was planning to start the Hulu series, and I wanted to remember what I’d read so long ago.)
6. Dopesick: Dealers, Doctors and the Drug Company that Addicted America by Beth Macy (For my freshman comp class. It was amazing the research questions they came up with based on this text.)
7. Unspeakable Things by Jess Lourey
8. The Care and Feeding of Ravenously Hungry Girls by Anissa Gray
9. Bury Your Dead by Louise Penny (Who doesn’t love Chief Inspector Armand Gamache?)
10. My Year of Rest and Relaxation by Ottessa Moshfegh (I didn’t love this as much as Eileen, but it was in the same weirdly brilliant way.)
11. The Immortalists by Chloe Benjamin (One of my faves. The premise is brilliant, and these people broke my heart.)
12. Followers by Megan Angelo
13. The Only Woman in the Room by Marie Benedict
14. Landline by Rainbow Rowell (Audiobook. Charming, lovely, kitschy in the best way.)
15. The Female Persuasion by Meg Wolitzer
16. The Other Mrs. By Mary Kubica (My second favorite in Kubica’s line-up.)
17. The Hired Man by Aminatta Forna (A quiet book that stuck with me in a lot of ways. It looks at the aftermath of war, and asks what we do with our wartime misdeeds and everyday criminals, especially when those people are ourselves.)
18. The Nest by Cynthia D’Aprix Sweeney
19. Jar of Hearts by Jennifer Hillier (Audiobook. A dark thriller.)
20. Miracle Creek by Angie Kim
21. Husbands and Other Sharp Objects by Marilyn Simon Rothstein
22. A Friend of the Family by Lisa Jewell
23. A Ladder to the Sky by John Boyne (I officially have a crush on John Boyne.)
24. State of Wonder by Ann Patchett (Ann Patchett can make me interested in things I didn’t know I was interested in. Just damn good story-telling.)
25. Exit West by Mohsin Hamid
26. He Said/She Said by Erin Kelly
27. Wilder Girls by Rory Power (I read this for the social-distance-this! book club. This was back when the pandemic was going to last for just a month or so.)
28. A Duty to the Dead by Charles Todd
29. Code Name Verity by Elizabeth Wein
30. The Warehouse by Rob Hart
31. Pretty Things by Janelle Brown
32. Marlena by Julie Buntin
33. Recursion by Blake Crouch
34. Truly Devious by Maureen Johnson
35. Everything Here is Beautiful by Mira T. Lee
36. An Impartial Witness by Charles Todd
37. My Dark Vanessa by Kate Elizabeth Russell (another read for the social-distance-this! book club. Dark indeed. I admire how the author let the main character stick to her guns, even though as a reader/woman I wanted to scream for most of the book.)
38. A Bitter Truth by Charles Todd
39. Father of the Rain by Lily King (I’d read Euphoria and was fascinated by it. This is a much more familiar story, but the characters are well drawn.)
40. The Vanishing Stair by Maureen Johnson
41. The Road to Jonestown: Jim Jones and Peoples Temple by Jeff Guinn (I felt like this could have been trimmed 150 pages or so, but it was a pretty exhaustive look at the cult.)
42. Wild Game: My Mother, Her Lover and Me by Adrienne Brodeur
43. Sometimes I Lie by Alice Feeney
44. A Good Girl’s Guide to Murder by Holly Jackson (Unexpected surprise for me. Smart and edgy.)
45. An Unmarked Grave by Charles Todd
46. The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas (Long overdue read. Should be required reading for high schools.)
47. On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous by Ocean Vuong (for social-distance-this! book club)
48. A Trick of the Light by Louise Penny
49. Dominicana by Angie Cruz (I found this on a “what to read instead of American Dirt” booklist, and it was a compelling immigrant coming of age story.)
50. Stay With Me by Ayobami Adebayo (I’m in love with Nigerian fiction, and this was a fantastic read that truly felt universal.)
51. Conviction by Denise Mina
52. This is How I Lied by Heather Gudenkauf
53. Born a Crime: Stories from a South African Childhood by Trevor Noah (Recommended reading.)
54. There There by Tommy Orange (Excellent.)
55. The Dearly Beloved by Cara Wall
56. Sister Dear by Hannah Mary McKinnon
57. The Arrangement by Robyn Harding
58. The Nickel Boys by Colson Whitehead (Timely and convicting. A read for social-distance-this! book club.)
59. Writers & Lovers by Lily King (Audiobook. So damn good. Read Lily King!)
60. The Subway Girls by Susie Orman Schnall
61. A Gentleman in Moscow by Amor Towles
62. Darktown by Thomas Mullen
63. Stranger in the Lake by Kimberly Belle
64. White Fragility: Why It’s So Hard for White People to Talk about Racism by Robin DiAngelo (A read for the Friday-night-anti-racism book club. Required reading for white people, like me.)
65. Dear America: Notes of an Undocumented Citizen by Jose Antonio Vargas (reading for freshman comp. My students loved this.)
66. One Day We’ll All Be Dead and None of This Will Matter by Scaachi Koul
67. The Island of Sea Women by Lisa See (read for the social-distance-this! book club. Had no idea this world existed.)
68. American Like Me: Reflections on Life Between Cultures by America Ferrera (Lots of great essays here, very teachable.)
69. Passing by Nella Larsen
70. Godshot by Chelsea Bieker
71. Alexander Hamilton by Ron Chernow (I read this with the Penguin-Read-Along. Pretty fascinating, lots of stuff not included in the musical.)
72. How to be an Antiracist by Ibran X. Kendi (Read for the Friday-night-anti-racist book club. Required reading.)
73. Blank Klansman: Race, Hate and the Undercover Investigation of a Lifetime by Ron Stallworth
74. Lost Children Archive by Valeria Luiselli (This didn’t quite do it for me, but it brought me to 75. Tell Me How it Ends, which was great.)
76. My Sister, the Serial Killer by Oyinkan Braithwaite (Darkly comic, delves into cultural and familial expectations. What wouldn’t you do for your sister?)
77. Fleishman is in Trouble by Taffy Brodesser-Akner
78. The Night Swim by Mean Goldin
79. Bad Blood: Secrets and Lies in a Silicon Valley Startup by John Carreyrou (Fascinating. Good companion to the Netflix documentary Inventor: Out for Blood.)
80. The Sun Down Motel by Simone St. James (True crime fans, unite!)
81. The Gunners by Rebecca Kauffman (I loved this so much, I shot a five a.m. book review video.)
82. Such a Fun Age by Kiley Reid
83. The Great Believers by Rebecca Makkai (In the top ten for 2020, for sure.)
84. Maybe You Should Talk to Someone: A Therapist, Her Therapist and Our Lives Revealed by Lori Gottlieb (Read for a Writing for Psych class—part memoir, part-therapy. Recommended.)
85. The Last Flight by Julie Clark
86. Long Bright River by Liz Moore (Gritty, dark police drama.)
87. Red at the Bone by Jacqueline Woodson
88. Mexican Gothic by Silvia Moreno-Garcia (Wild and inventive, a great gothic read.)
89. Tell Me How it Ends: An Essay in 40 Questions by Valeria Luiselli (Highly recommended.)
90. Maid: Hard Work, Low Pay, and a Mother’s Will to Survive by Stephanie Land (Read this instead of Hillbilly Elegy.)
91. The Witch Elm by Tana French
92. These Women by Ivy Pochada
93. One Drop: My Father’s Hidden Life—A Story of Race and Family Secrets by Bliss Broyard (read for Friday-night-anti-racist book club)
94. American Prison: A Reporter’s Undercover Journey into the Business of Punishment by Shane Bauer (Undercover look at private prisons. Completely horrifying.)
95. A Place for Us by Fatima Farheen Mirza
96. The Whisper Man by Alex North
97. The River by Peter Heler
98. The Bright Lands by John Fram
99. Ask Again, Yes by Mary Beth Keane (Heart-breaker. Just a good story.)
100. Drive Your Plow Over the Bones of the Dead by Olga Togarczuk
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